Nak Nikah! Siapa???

Bismillah walhamdulillah

Sholawatuwassalam 'ala Rasulillah, wa 'ala ahlihi wa ashabihi ajmain...

Hari ni hari Sabtu. Yes today is Saturday...So what? Alhamdulillah, masih hidup lagi, segar bernafas.
Tarikh hari ni santek ye, 23/03/2013. Ya, seindah harinya, subhanallah....So what?

HARI NI EX-MURABBIAH SAYA NIKAHLA!!! So....HAPPYLA!!!

Kak, thanks ya, jaga dekya dekat Ganu dulu (ceh, macam lama dah tinggalkan Ganu kan, padahal baru sebulan). You're meant so much to me besides other akhawat yang dekya sangat sayang, lillah (^_^). You're my first murabbiah there. How could I forgot our memories? Never! You're the one that inspired me to be strong in this way (D&T). Thanks ya akak, you were there (even u couldn't every time be in front of me, stay by my side, apatah lagi lepas ni kan? ehem) when I need your help. Akak, mesej2 kata semangat akak dah x da dalam phone saya (and right now phone lama dah innalillah. lagi la x de simpanan, aiseh) but I still memorize the one that u sent to me "ukhtiku, jangan bersedih, kerana kamulah yang paling mulia disisi Allah jika kamu bertakwa". What a bless! 

It's ok I forgive you (haha, tiba2). Biasalah kan, dalam berukhwah mesti kadang2 ada terasa masam, manis, pahit, gatal2 (tetibe). Akak, maafkan saya ya kalau saya ada buat salah kat akak. Saya sayang akak lillah...Today is one of your best days. Be strong kak (padahal sendiri yang broken, ahaks), ingat Allah selalu. Dia akan memudahkan segalanya. You've got your prince charming today (alahai, sweetnya!). 

Dear sis, 

Marriage is the door of happiness, joyful and fun time

Open it and enjoy every steps in it

Take all the moments and handle them in positive ways

You'll realize the greatest gift from Allah, specially, only for you (^_^)

Dear sis, ukhti tersayang, Halimaton Solehah binti Mohamed, may your marriage be blessed with unending Rahmah. Will always pray for your happiness. Teruskan dakwah dan tarbiyah (perlu lagi gencar la kan, sebab dah bertambah kekuatan, ngehehe). 

Barakallahulakuma wa baraka 'alaikuma wa jama'a bainakuma fi khair. 

-Daripada adikmu yang sengal-sengal tulang.

For u sis n zauj

Nun Ya Ta = NIAT

Bismillah

Alhmdulillah, selawat n salam buat Rasulullah s.a.w, ahli keluarga dan sahabat baginda, serta semua umat Islam.

I am now doing practical training in HTAR. As stated in the letter, we'll not get any allowance, accommodation, transportation and even food. Alhamdulillah, semua ni x jadi masalah. 

No allowance, still get Pa&Ma allowance

No accommodation, I can walk to hospital coz it takes 20-30 minutes from wanda's house

No transportation, do I care??? I even don't have transport since in UMT (except my stolen bike (-_-'))

No food, mama kan bagi duit. Beli la makanan...

Tapi sebenarnya kitorang banyak kali dapat makan FREE. Complete meal lagi, siap ada buah. Macam mana tu??? Bila ada lebihan makanan untuk pesakit, siapa je boleh makan or else the food will be thrown (sedih, teringat rakyat kat Palestin, Somalia, etc...). Pernah sekali tu one whole week makan free. Alhamdulillah. Bila kita tolong serve sekali, ha, tu lah tiket tuk dapat makan free. Kalau tak tolong, segan plak nak minta kan?

My point is, NIAT. Adakah sebab nak makan free, kita tolong Pembantu Penyediaan Makanan (PePM) serve makanan? Of course not! Kalau itu niat kita, yes, we'll get what we want, tapi redha Allah??? Imagine, kita niat nak tolong PePM kerana Allah (PePM doesn't know, but Allah knows), kita akan dapat redha-Nya bukan? And..that extra food will still be entering our stomach, isn't it? 

Senario lain, as mentioned before. We're not getting any allowance. Tapi tak bermakna kita berkira dalam bekerja kan? Bila ada kerja lebih sikit perlu ke kita kata, "alah...bukan dapat gaji pun, biarlah staff buat."? Can we just say, I'm learning right now, and whatever I do, it's part of my learning process (that will not be stopped till the end of our life), and I learn all this because of Allah. Akan timbul lagi tak rasa, biarlah staff yang buat??? 

Bila suatu hari nanti kita bekerja, adakah kita bekerja kerana duit atau kerana Allah? Let's refresh out 'niat'. That all of the things we do in this earth because of Him, to please Him. We'll have a better life. Come on, enjoy your life, because of Allah (^_^)

Kalau malas nak tadah tangan, niat je dalam hati

Be Humble (^_^)

Bismillah....

Selawat dan salam buat Rasulullah s.a.w., keluarga baginda, sahabat-sahabat baginda dan semua umat Islam.

18th March 2013, morning (going to HTAR)

Me: Hurm, perniagaan yang paling sesuai tuk kita mestilah jual makanan kan?
Sherina: Yes!
Me: Aku kan, nak buka bakery, tapi, takkan nak amik supplier orang cina.
Sherina: Kau la jadi supplier. Amacam?
Me: Mana nak dapat orang Melayu yang jual shortening, omelet (that's actually ovalette,haha) ...

Suddenly,
Someone: Dik!

We turned to look the person in the car (black Alphard). He's an adult at (maybe) my father's age. Besides him was his wife.

The Man: Nak pergi hospital ya? Naiklah.
Me, Sherina and Habsah: Ya pakcik, ok.

In the car, it was such a nice moment. They asked us about our industrial training (his daughter is a doctor in HTAR, she already went to the hospital that time). They were sweet old (I should not use this word, heheh) couple. As the car turned in front of the gate the husband said (like whispering) to his wife (with a gentle touch on her hand), "pakai seatbelt". So sweet!!!! What a blessed day. Starting the day with positive persons, very humble, and the one that I can't forgot is the wife always said, "sayang..." to us. Huh, I miss my mom!

19th March 2013, morning (start the day by walking to HTAR)

Just several steps away from the house, a school bus stopped and the driver said, "Dik, nak ke hospital kan?" We nodded. He said, "naiklah". In the bus, the questions were the same as in Alphard. When we answered his question, he said, "Bagus-bagus...". Then, when he asked, "Ambil course apa?" We said, "Sains Makanan". He said  (as mentioned before), "Bagus...". Actually his wife also was a Nutrition student graduated from UKM. Around the year 1983 or 1984. One thing that surprised me was, "Pakcik pun belajar dekat UKM juga, sekarang bawa bas (senyum)." Huh, I was melting......Subhanallah, such a nice person we met! Very humble too....

In short, whoever you are, be humble (advice to myself)

HTAR, With Love 

  

Breastfeeding. It's A Must!

Bismillah...

Alhamdulillah, selawat dan salam buat Rasulullah s.a.w., keluarga dan sahabat-sahabat baginda serta umat Islam sedunia.

Last week, we (the 6 HTAR practical students) were invited to join BabyFriendly Talk presented by the Head of Dietetic and Foodservice Department, HTAR, Mdm Faizah Hamzah. It was about the importance of breastfeeding.

Ladies,
What I got after joining this talk is as a mother, we SHOULD breastfeed our babies. Breast milk is the best EVER food that has complete nutrition the babies need. Easy right? We don't have to boil water, make one  even several bottles of milk, ensure its best temperature to feed babies, make budget to buy infant formulas, so on and so forth. Breast milk, it is ready to serve!

I love this quote:
"Imagine that the world had created a new 'dream product' to feed and immunize everyone born on earth. Imagine also that it was available everywhere, required no storage or delivery, and helped mothers plan their families and reduce the risk of cancer. Then imagine that the world refused to use it.” ― Frank A. Oski 

Imagine....Don't you think that it's a waste (It needs a lot of time, money and people to develop a new product) when the world refuses to use that 'dream product'? Yes, you do. So ladies, Allah had granted us (only women, proud uh?) with breastmilk to feed the babies. Do appreciate it! Just don't ever get attracted with those infant formula (Just infant formulas, it's ok for you to buy milk for growing babies) products just because they promote you a lot of 'amazing things' your babies may get. 

Don't be shy to feed your babies with the best ever food in the world. It'll strengthen mother-child bond. All the best! heheh ;-)

Say 'NO' to infant formulas

  

Ini Namanya Pengajaran

Bismillah...

Alhamdulillah.....selawat dan salam buat Rasulullah s.a.w., keluarga baginda, sahabat-sahabat dan seluruh umat Islam.

This is the 5th day of his death but I still want to write about this story. Just want to read it whenever I gone far from God, a story to make me realize that Allah still love me and wants me to be a better servant. For me, for Him, insya-Allah.....

Wanda opened the door, saw me sat on the bed, busy looking onto the screen.
Wanda (My Aunt): Aya, kamu dah makan?
Me: Belum, kenapa?
Wanda: Pergi makan cepat, ada nasi lemak atas meja dapur. Tadi makjan (my aunt, I thought her, can't remember who's actually called wanda) call, dia kata malam tadi (9/3/2013) angah Nazmi tak balik rumah. Pagi tadi ada polis call makji, suruh datang Hospital Serdang untuk cam mayat.
Me: Ha????Mati??????????
Wanda: Tak confirm lagi (with her shaky voice) tapi kita standby je. Apa2 pun wanda nak pergi hospital, tunggu Pak Uda kamu balik rumah dulu.

Terus shut down laptop, went towards kitchen, amik sudu n buka nasi lemak. Makan, macam telan batu. Peritnya kat tekak. Betul ke angah....? Baru je terfikir pasal family dia masa baca quran. Tanda ke tu? Allah knows.

Lama lepas tu, wanda confirmed the news, angah, you were really gone.....

Di Hospital Serdang

Terus nampak angah's sisters, pergi kat diorang salam n peluk.

Me: Ila, makji mana?
Ila: Dalam (bilik forensik).
Me: Sebenarnya kenapa?
Ila: Semalam, angah tak balik rumah (he was at Domino Bangi, he worked there, part time). Orang Domino call ibu, tanya angah ada balik rumah x? Ibu cakap angah tak balik lagi. Waktu tu dah pukul 11pm (if not mistaken). Pagi tadi, Ibu buat police report, Domino pun. Takut ada kes jenayah, sebab angah ada pegang duit Domino dalam RM600 lebih. Then, bila nak call polis cawangan lain je, ada polis call, kata ada mayat baru kat Hospital Serdang. Nama Nazmi. Dia minta waris tolong cam.

And so, we were at the hospital....

Bangcik (my bro) was there, came with Along (wanda's son). He saw me continuously crying, went towards me and calmed me down.

Me: Masa wanda bagitau tadi, dekya call bangcik dulu, sebab bangcik kawan baik dia (arwah). Tapi voicemail.
Bangcik: Bangcik dah tau, tapi bangcik tak ada kredit nak reply. Tadi bangcik tengok mayat dia. Teruk ya. Muka dia lebam, tangan dia dua-dua patah, kaki patah sebelah. Bangcik taknak mati macam tu.....
Me: Speechless....Tadi mama msg (Mama was in Kuching), dia nak balik tapi flight lambat. Kalau dia balik pun tak sempat. Mama kata angah dah macam anak dia sendiri (I showed Bangcik the msg).

Angah was dead by an accident. He was riding his motorcycle that night, hit a tree at the roadside and fell into a big drain filled with water. Police said that he was dead around 12 hours before his body was found.
Masa di unit forensik, hanya ayah dia yang tengok arwah tuk pengecaman. Yang lain dapat tengok di rumah, selepas arwah dimandikan dan dikafan. It was a sad, very sorrow moment. I couldn't stop crying and reciting al-Fatihah. Then, we're praying for Angah, then brought him to his last place in the earth.

Dekat kubur, dengar talkin. Real live talkin (my very first time experience). Dengar pula betul-betul depan kubur arwah, dekat dengan ustaz. Because I sat on the mat together with makji and my sis, Kakteh. Dengar talkin betul2 menginsafkan. Betullah talkin itu sebagai pengajaran bagi yang masih hidup walaupun nama yang disebut waktu tu adalah nama arwah. Tapi orang mati tak boleh dengar dah. There were many people at kubur. Arwah memang ramai kawan. Tak sangka, I don't know my day. But this day was very full with tazkirah. Tentang hidup, amalan, dosa, pahala, hubungan manusia dengan Tuhan, manusia dengan manusia....
Cepatnya waktu berlalu, rasa kejap je saat tu. Angah keluar rumah, tak balik, jumpa mayat, mandi, kafan, bawa pulang rumah, solat, tanam, talkin, the end. Tapi pengajarannya sangat bermakna. It was a bless for me. Thank you angah, may u be blessed there. Thank you Allah for granting me this opportunity.

Hero

Bismillah...

Alhamdulillah, selawat dan salam buat Rasulullah s.a.w., keluarga dan sahabat baginda serta semua umat Islam.

He was the only son in his family

He hoped to serve a better life for them

He liked "sambal ikan bilis" a lot

He was just nice, hardworking son

Not forget the obligation towards his Only God

Wanted to ease his mother, he done it well

He can't see the degree certificate

He was unable to finish his practical training

He was not yet married

Because Allah loves him

More than we love him

Angah, you are a hero and always be....

# Benarlah kematian itu satu tazkirah@peringatan

Erti Hidup

Bismillahirrahim.....

Alhamdulillahirabbil 'alamin...selawat dan salam buat Rasulullah s.a.w., keluarga baginda, sahabat dan seluruh umat Islam.

Inginku mengenali erti hidup yang diberi

Dunia jadi saksi liku-liku kan ku harungi...

Aku mahu hidup yang bermakna, yang bererti, yang Allah redha. Sebenarnya, aku nak macam apa yang aku lalui, yang aku dapat di Terengganu. Bukan aku kata dekat sini tak seronok. Aku bersyukur dengan apa yang lalui sekarang. Alhamdulillah (dapat tinggal dengan aunty yang sporting, ada kawan2 yang best, tak payah gaduh lama, just enjoy the moment here, ada supervisor yang sporting jugak, rasa macam dimanjakan pun ada jangan sampai naik tocang sudah , dia jaga kebajikan kitorang as well as putting a high expectation on us. harap dapat buat yang terbaik je lah). Hidup kat sini bukan x best, ada je ceramah di masjid. 

Tapi...aku rasa kosong. Mana usrah? Mana akhawat? Mana program? Mabit? Rehlah? Jaulah? Dll? Sungguh, aku rindu semua tu sekarang. Aku ke yang tak dekat dengan Allah, atau keadaan yang tak menyokong untuk aku beramal? Sungguh, aku rindu Terengganu. Aku rindu medan itu. Aku tahu, akhawat silih berganti, mad'u datang dan pergi (habis belajar masing2 akan balik negeri masing2). Tapi aku nak duduk sana nanti. Kenapa aku menentang arus? Sebab aku rasa hidup aku kat situ. Kenapa Terengganu? Sebab jiwa aku kat situ. Kenapa tak duduk rumah dan teruskan saja tugas dakwah dan tarbiyah? Sebab....kalau tak aku ke sana, siapa lagi??? In short, it's because of Allah. Aku nak dekat dengan Allah dan aku rasa tempat tu yang paling sesuai untuk aku beramal untuk redha-Nya. 

Aku masih mencari erti hidup, hidup dalam redha Ilahi....

HTAR, 8th March 2013